As I sit here writing this I think, what the hell am I doing?
Seriously, why did I think that this was going to be a good idea? Will they fail me now or wait until I turn something in? Will I ever make good friends? Why don't I have a place to live yet? Why am I not at the gym?
So many thoughts running through my head and I can't answer any of them.
Let's go through the list -
Good Idea - well so many good ideas for why to get your MBA, but for me? I can't even think this early in the AM and scared that nobody will want to work with me. I am nervous that my open book, open note final exam is going to be the end of my MBA studies. That's in 8 weeks! why am I thinking so far ahead, we haven't even done anything yet, maybe it will be easy.. haha! Well I should expect it to be tough, but not impossible..
I want to make friends within my cohort/class but I don't want to get tired of all the same people. I am sure eventually it will happen, but most already seem to be best friends with somebody. Or somebody that I think I am getting close to runs off after we're done talking to hang out with somebody I didn't even know was their "bff." So I have no friends, awesome - me the "Social Butterfly." That's great. Although, honestly I didn't have many close ones in LA either, just one, and technically he doesn't count. I wanted something new and challenging, but all at once? A new city, a new school, a new way of thinking... so much new.. something comforting would be nice right about now.
This is what they call home-sick, right?
I don't have a place to live because there are too many people looking at the same place, or maybe the more obvious answer is that there is something horribly wrong with me..hope not!
I am not at the gym because I made a few really great excuses, including that I didn't want to carry my junk around campus...so heavy I need a locker!
I have butterflies, I am not eating properly, sleeping is tough, I haven't worked out, my face looks like bomb exploded on it - all in all I am not enjoying this so far. So, what to do? I am going to stop complaining, and just dive in. All of the networking events, a few clubs, some outside social interactions. I will work out in the hotel room, and once I get more settled I will make sure to make a schedule which includes the gym. It's just something I have to do. Or just run back home to LA with my tail between my legs.
